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Happy Birthday to Öz

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 4, 2008, 12:56 AM
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Dragon by Tori Amos
  • Drinking: Shiraz Wine
It doesn't hurt to announce I've just entered the latter half of my 20's.

I'm happy I've made it through literally the worst year of my life.
So I gladly and joyously say: "Good Bye 25". It can't get worse than this.
Since I still look in my teens, I have enough of a good security blanket to be proud of myself and my diligent, persevering, disciplined water consumption and expensive beauty product usage. I love Ebel Paris Libertage system, among other sweet eye creams.

During this year I:

-Met my current partner, whom I love deeply and who has shown me that perhaps humans still have something to give.

-Experienced severe physical and mental health complications, the most bothersome being: depression (of the major kind).

-Lost my best friend to a psycho coke-head murderer in Chinatown, who then slept with her naked corpse for three days, extirpating from my life one of the most important persons ever, the one person who knew me the most, and part of my family.

-Restated my belief that 'most people suck'.

-Found out who my real friends are and regained even more love and appreciation for them.

-Went through Paxil and learned my lesson during the withdrawal. The little voices are not as fun as I always imaged them to be.

-Restated my belief that faith works just the same way for everything, especially science & developed even more love for good old Nietzsche & Jung quotes.

-Completely lost my faith in general elitist scientific thinking the last week when I grabbed National Geographic Explorer and restated my intuitions about Animal Intelligence and how freakishly superior and narcissistic the whole human race is...I was humbled again, and I cried for good old lost animal/pet friends...

-Lost all will and impetus to be creative, to which my muse revenged in a true story I will tell shortly.

-Got even more cabin fever about living in this goddamn forsaken accursed island...and between its people...

-Got an even cooler haircut and now I have nifty blue, purple and green streaks in it...with a celeb stylist and all that jizz.

The loss of a Wacom Intuos 2 12 x 12

So I've been totally distracted, absent minded, floating up in the clouds, and behaving stupidly due to Paxil withdrawal. To the point where I almost pulled a Heath Ledger, thanks to distraction. I fucking swallowed an extra dose of sleeping pills without even noticing... and I had to finger my throat to empty my stomach. WATCH OUT LINDSAY LOHAN!!!

So after spending the last few days of 'Holy Weak', which is the local spring break... at my partner's parents' house... and packing everything up so that we could come back to his apartment... I found out that maybe not everything was in the car after all!

Around two minutes going out of the urbanization, and finally reaching the 'highway' called "Expreso Trujillo"... once we turned the wheel to take the 'curve'and a turn to the left...

I heard the sweet and peaceful crash of a neglected object.
My Wacom Tablet Intuos 2 12 x 12 was happily surfing on top of the car, when it lost its balance and ended up falling off it's 'surfing board'.

My partner stoped the car and I just picked it up in three pieces.
No emotion whatsoever. I sat on the side rail...looked to the heavens and
I just said to myself: What else will I lose?

Not my virginity, that was lost a long time ago...


So seriously, happy motherf****** freaking well-deserved birthday to me. F*CK!

I'm accepting fashionable Jockstraps as long as they aren't Calvin Klein; I decided CK underwear is a turn off since 3 years ago. I will model if you send some. Ask me in private for my mailing address.

If you want to make my day and celebrate with me, it's very easy & simple:

-Watch one of the last movies I ever saw with Lorna (R.I.P.), my best friend:
1. Fur, A Portrait of Diane Arbus
2. Wicker Park
3. Marie Antoinette
4. The House of Flying Dagger (it was our shared favorite)
5. Evening (ironically, the last movie we ever saw together at a movie theatre)

Or drink some of her favorite wines:
1. Pinot Noir
2. Plum Wine

Listen to her latest song hookups:
1. Bang Bang (Sinatra or Cher)
2. Little Amsterdam &/or Leather by Tori Amos

Eat:
1. Chocolate Cake: preferably "American Beauty"
2. Sushi rolls.

Go:
1. Out to a Goth party where they play mainly electronica and dress sexy goth punk and classy.

Wish me:
1. Success & Peace.

Love you all for reading this shite. :blowkiss:

P.S.: I got a Wacom Intuos 3 9 x 12 already! I'll I need to do is kick depression in the gut and do some well deserved painting.

luvs <3
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Devious Information

  • Current Age: 26
  • Current Residence: San Juan, Puerto Rico
  • Interests: Fine Arts, entertainment, sushi, wines, sake, margaritas, martinis, knowledge...
  • Favourite movie: LOTR, Legend, Amelié, Girl With a Pearl Earring, Closer, The Hours, Majo no Takkyuubin, etc. ..
  • Favourite band or musician: Tori Amos, Susumu Hirasawa, Geinoh Yamashirogumi, Loreena McKennitt, Emilie Autumn, Beethoven, etc.
  • Favourite genre of music: Eclectic tastes
  • Favourite artist: Yoshitaka Amano, Zdzislaw Beksinski, Remedios Varo, Ajami Kojima, Akihiko Yoshida...
  • Favourite poet or writer: Gregory Maguire, Anne Rice, Laurell K. Hamilton, Poe, Tanith Lee, Patricia C. Wrede, Roald Dahl...
  • Favourite photographer: Lina Hansson, Jonathan Waiter, Randis Albion & BETH LUV
  • Favourite style or digital art: Baroque, Pre-Raphaelites, Romanticism, Surrealism, Symbolism
  • Operating System: PC Pentium 4 Win XP
  • Favourite game: D&D, Xenogears, Xenosaga, Final Fantasy titles, Suikoden titles, Soul Calibur titles
  • Favourite gaming platform: Playstation 2, Playstation 3, XBox360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Nuriko, Jiji, Haruka & Michiru, Rei Hino, Ceres, Naga the Serpent, Lain, Lenore, Deedlit...
  • Personal Quote: "A picture may be worth a thousand words, but some people lack vocabulary either way." ~Oz
  • Tools of the Trade: Graphite pencils, pastels, color pencils, oils, watercolors and acrylics, ink, Photoshop

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~dzunnun:icondzunnun: 5 days 14 hours ago
amazing gallery :)

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~MortisMeridian:iconMortisMeridian: May 2, 2008, 12:08:58 AM Mood: Joy
I keeeeell you!
:D

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~DecembersDemon:iconDecembersDemon: Apr 23, 2008, 5:35:29 PM
tooootally.

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I dance in sprinklers.
They're on some serious crackage
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Apr 22, 2008, 5:58:09 PM Mood: Love
he rocks!

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Apr 22, 2008, 5:57:57 PM Mood: Joy
gracias!

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~DecembersDemon:iconDecembersDemon: Apr 16, 2008, 6:49:00 AM
Roald Dahl. :]

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I dance in sprinklers.
They're on some serious crackage
~ynhos:iconynhos: Apr 10, 2008, 8:07:26 AM
Linda galeria ^^
+wacth (L)
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Apr 9, 2008, 8:14:50 PM
*opens wide to receive all the love*

don't be a dirty head! :lol:

:blowkiss:

Thank you kay!!!

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Apr 9, 2008, 8:14:19 PM
:heart: :glomp:

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Apr 9, 2008, 8:14:02 PM
not really! :D

THANK YOU!!!

happy unbirthday to ya' :manhug:

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Apr 6, 2008, 11:56:16 PM
lol Hmmmm

more cake or more sex?
I had 2 cakes.

Since I'm allowed to celebrate for a day per year of accomplishment, I still have a few left!!!

Worry not about the working, I totally understand. ;)

Thank youuuuuu for the birthday wishes!!!
:glomp: <3 wuv u 2!!!

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
*algenpfleger:iconalgenpfleger: Apr 6, 2008, 2:33:48 AM
damn, i missed it D= happy belated birthday!
*ip2much:iconip2much: Apr 4, 2008, 3:17:07 PM Mood: Love
Happy birthday, my love! :heart:

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*kay-ness:iconkay-ness: Apr 4, 2008, 4:41:09 AM
much loves to the birffday boy

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*cypherx:iconcypherx: Apr 4, 2008, 3:05:26 AM
Happy birthday, 4-4ian.

hope you have loads of sex atop a cake (and that you're not on bottom so you don't get it in your crack).

hehe

oi

I've been working too often and too long, I'm forgetting myself in it and that's no good. Time for a bit of a change of pace for me. hopefully you'll see more of an attentive Jen soon
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Apr 3, 2008, 11:19:28 PM Mood: Depressed
:spammer:

:cake: :#1: :dance: :strip:

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~Dragonfly22:iconDragonfly22: Mar 30, 2008, 9:14:13 AM
lol ohhh ok I see, then I think I'll opt for "self-taught-home-schooling-sort-of-thing" haha, it's good to know, it killed that little voice telling me to study so, which is great, now I can kinda move on to something more...realistic :D thanks xd

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That who ignores music, ignores his inner child, his human soul itself
I LOVE art and music, only because my heart chooses so :music:
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~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Mar 27, 2008, 6:37:57 PM Mood: Love
oz loves kay

:glomp:

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
*kay-ness:iconkay-ness: Mar 19, 2008, 4:04:55 PM
me loves oz

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~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Feb 19, 2008, 4:20:10 PM
a degree looks good in 'artist bio' kinda thing.

Actually I found the school very 'modernist' and the faculty profs reject a lot of pre-modern art as if it is the most disgusting thing ever. But this is an ideology thing. If you want to learn about art, study art history, if you want to 'do art' just do it... all you will do in the class room is sit in front of your blank canvas and do the same thing you can do at your own house. You do get to hear critique but most of the time it's useless, especially if you are good, cuz then it's all 'ass-licking'.

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~Dragonfly22:iconDragonfly22: Feb 19, 2008, 3:05:57 PM
oh :wow: but hey that's great though 'cause at least you did learn a lot of things. sometimes... actually all the times things happen for a reason, so probably it was better that your skills sharpened at one thing rather than revolve around others. And yet it is as you say, it's cool to learn things on your own.
At least I could agree that for me that's the way how it's always been, so it's grea t.
Besides sometimes we complain so much that we block ourselves from seeing other truths like for example, it's good that they taught you old art history, wasn't it? i mean it would be bad that they taught me first Shakira's music instead of beethoven's if you know what I mean...
one last question, what did you want the diploma for? resumés for what kinda job?

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That who ignores music, ignores his inner child, his human soul itself
I LOVE art and music, only because my heart chooses so :music:
---- :peace:
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Feb 19, 2008, 12:51:41 PM
I actually finished my B.A. in Fine Arts (drawing & painting) at the UPR Art School. Magna Cum Laude and all that shit... LOL

Being honest, I didn't learn anything technique wise.

What you do is just expand your vocabulary and learn the trades of the business. See how the art world works, etc. But you won't really learn anything you can't on your own.

I declare myself auto-didactic. Everything I do on a technical level I've taught myself.

It is however cool to mix and mingle with other artists and I have some wonderful pals.

I think that professors applaud too easily at shit students do, especially in Artes Plasticas... and that they don't have a good sense of what's going on in the world internationally. The local 'art scene' is honestly at least 20 years behind what's going on right now in the first world countries. Add to it our insularism and cultural problems, censure and all that stuff.

Now, if a person has never used a pencil or paintbrush in his/her life, going to either Art School will give him a thing or two to learn. In my case I had done everything they attempted to teach me when I was much much much much younger. (for example I had already surpassed Dibujo 2 level by age 12 and I still had to take the class cuz it was a curriculum requirement).

Now you can take advantage of the figure drawing models and all that. But they usually make extracurricular sessions, you just pay about 2 dollars and they have live modeling sessions. I don't know if they still do them do.

So in any case, I just studied to get the diploma :P ;) :devil: hehee for 'resumé' purposes. I did totally enjoy literature, philosophy, history, etc. classes (any class that was not of concentration minus a few undesirables).

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored:
~Dragonfly22:iconDragonfly22: Feb 18, 2008, 7:00:03 PM
yeah that's true, i'm quite aware. I just discovered that I can't focus my attention on pleasing people rather than following my own will in my path, and it is as I say: if I love it, surely somebody else is gonna love it, but first I have to state my identity as an artist. By th way, have you taken art lessons in San Juan school of Fine arts? just asking ;) thanks

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That who ignores music, ignores his inner child, his human soul itself
I LOVE art and music, only because my heart chooses so :music:
---- :peace:
~oz-haver:iconoz-haver: Feb 18, 2008, 6:13:36 PM
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY KAY!!! Have you stolen any hearts for our yearly soup? We need good ones for a delicious flavor! :devil:

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With my head in the clouds & my eyes on the ground,
even though I stumble I never fall down:
that is the öz way. :bored: